Time for a change

I've been living here in Orlando Florida now for a little over a month. Disney is an amazing company, Florida is beautiful, and the people are great. Yet I still don't feel happy. It's something I've been battling with since I was young. It has rooted into every aspect of my life including the everyday stress factors we all deal with. Every little incident that occurs is over blown due to my issue dealing with my weight. I have put up with the name calling, the glares, and even the rejection from jobs, rides and dates. Being down here in Florida has been hard, the swimming pools and hot bodies all around have made my confidence stop at a stand still. I have tried several different times with several different diets and plans with several different peoples help. I lose weight for a little while but then something comes along and just halts me from continuing. Recently I have discovered how much I love aromatherapy and holistic healing. So much that I have began looking into majors I can take when I return home. These oils also promote healthier living, which led me to start taking vitamins (which I should have been doing along time ago) but I have been battling the college diet now. With a low income I am forced to buy less healthy food because it is cheaper. But that has to stop. I will start to eat better and well the biggest issue is exercise. I need to start but i'm not sure if I can, I get so shy when I exercise around people I don't know. So this puts me in the mood of thinking about other people, people worse off then me, what they are going through. I see all these famous people that drop pounds like it's nothing. So i realized a few common things between them, one is obviously they can afford to eat better, buy a personal trainer and things revolving around money. This route I can not begin to help with so I threw that one out, BUT I found the other common route they take is programs. Be it from a weight lose program to a TV show. I began to think "well hey, i work for Disney, they always want to help people and create magical moments for guests." Even though I am an employer doesn't mean I can't have my magical moment achieved. I want to start a program offered for the staff of Disney. Like a Biggest Loser but for employees, Full time vs Part Time vs CP's (college program). The winning team of this competition could win a prestigious prize from the company. I think this would go along with the SAFE D and Health factor the company basis its' self on. I would love if this could come true. In the mean time I will be trying to lose my weight to feel better about myself. Wish me luck world. Goodnight.