Birthday time again...

So world here's a recap of my life since the beginning of March. Let's start out by a little history lesson, I always loved my birthday, my family always threw me a party in this little house in hamilton. We had so many people come and just have fun. I loved my birthday until the year 1999. On March 19th. 1999 my Grandma Gregory past away. 1 week from my birthday. She was very old and sick so I knew it was coming but it still hurt, my birthday that year wasn't so happy though. The next year roles around and well at the beginning of March my grandma Cornett had a brain aneurysm burst. She shortly then fell into a coma. Well March 19th. rolled around and I

was sitting there in the hospital next to my grandma. I had been there all day and my Uncle

Greg needed a smoke so he left for like 15 mins. So i got up too and went to sit in the room

next door which had a TV. I watched 1 commercial and then Ernie (guy from church) walked

into the room and said, "well she's gone". I jumped up and ran to find my mom crying over top

of my grandma. She passed away exactly 1 year and 12 hours from my grandma gregory.

That birthday was not a very good one either that year. My grandpa would grow very sad and I

have, even to this day, hated myself for getting up and leaving my grandma, my uncle is the same

way also. So all in all I hate March. I have had other deaths happen in March and other bad events

It wasn't until my 18th. birthday that I actually enjoyed my birthday again. My gf at the time decided

she wanted me to have a birthday to remember. She had one of my favorite bands, local band,

come and play for me and had my friends there and all. It was and forever will be the greatest birthday

i've ever had. However a week later her grandpa died, he became like the pappaw i never had since

one of my grandpas died in the 60's. Then a few days later, April 4th. I broke up with her and lost the

love of my life. Sooooooo i hate March. and well april too. These past few weeks here in florida have

been hard too, 50+ hours a week plus no money, heart ache, and pure exhaustion have been killin

me. I miss my little sister and brother plus all of my friends. Alot is on my mind but on a good note I

do like someone down here and well i think she may like me too, even if she is just a flirt and doesnt

really like me, its nice to have someone to think about instead of all my problems so im cool with it.

Well world i got to get back to cleaning, thanks for listening as always.

Time for a change

I've been living here in Orlando Florida now for a little over a month. Disney is an amazing company, Florida is beautiful, and the people are great. Yet I still don't feel happy. It's something I've been battling with since I was young. It has rooted into every aspect of my life including the everyday stress factors we all deal with. Every little incident that occurs is over blown due to my issue dealing with my weight. I have put up with the name calling, the glares, and even the rejection from jobs, rides and dates. Being down here in Florida has been hard, the swimming pools and hot bodies all around have made my confidence stop at a stand still. I have tried several different times with several different diets and plans with several different peoples help. I lose weight for a little while but then something comes along and just halts me from continuing. Recently I have discovered how much I love aromatherapy and holistic healing. So much that I have began looking into majors I can take when I return home. These oils also promote healthier living, which led me to start taking vitamins (which I should have been doing along time ago) but I have been battling the college diet now. With a low income I am forced to buy less healthy food because it is cheaper. But that has to stop. I will start to eat better and well the biggest issue is exercise. I need to start but i'm not sure if I can, I get so shy when I exercise around people I don't know. So this puts me in the mood of thinking about other people, people worse off then me, what they are going through. I see all these famous people that drop pounds like it's nothing. So i realized a few common things between them, one is obviously they can afford to eat better, buy a personal trainer and things revolving around money. This route I can not begin to help with so I threw that one out, BUT I found the other common route they take is programs. Be it from a weight lose program to a TV show. I began to think "well hey, i work for Disney, they always want to help people and create magical moments for guests." Even though I am an employer doesn't mean I can't have my magical moment achieved. I want to start a program offered for the staff of Disney. Like a Biggest Loser but for employees, Full time vs Part Time vs CP's (college program). The winning team of this competition could win a prestigious prize from the company. I think this would go along with the SAFE D and Health factor the company basis its' self on. I would love if this could come true. In the mean time I will be trying to lose my weight to feel better about myself. Wish me luck world. Goodnight.